Prayer Request

hey guys.. if you see this, please keep me in your prayers. God is redirecting my entire life right now, and I'm having a hard time with so much resistance. Please pray that He will give clarity to me and my authorities, open doors that need to be open/close doors that need to be closed, give me favor with those around me, and go ahead of me and make the path straight. It would also be awesome if you could pray that He'd download me with the strength I need to walk through this in a worthy manner. Love you guys.. I'll update when I have more of an idea of what's going on.

Who Told You?

who told you that you were lazy?
who told you that you were problematic?
who told you that you were fat?
who told you that you were not loved?
who told you that you were ugly?
who told you that you were rebellious?
who told you that you were a burden?
who told you that you were unintelligent?
who told you that you were a mistake?
who told you that you were too short?
who told you that you were boring?
who told you that you were mean?
who told you that you were not good enough?
who told you that you were a bad singer?
who told you that you were imperfect?
who told you that you were destined to fail?
who told you that you were too loud?
who told you that you were immature?
who told you that you were not artistic?
who told you that you were sick?
who told you that you were worthless?
who told you that you were replaceable?
who told you that you were poor?
who told you that you were dying?
who told you that you were undesireable?
who told you that you were deserving punishment?
who told you that you were lacking talent?
who told you that you were stupid?
who told you that you were hideous?
who told you that you were irresponsible?
who told you that you were rejected?
who told you that you were trapped?
who told you that you were abandoned?
who told you that you were never going to overcome?
who told you that you were an inconvenience?
who told you that you were hopeless?
who told you that you were dramatic?
who told you that you were a screw up?
who told you that you were an idiot?
who told you that you were shy?
who told you that you were alone?
who told you that you were a victim?
who told you that you were not unique?
who told you that you were not cared about?
who told you that you were an outsider?
who told you that you were afraid?
who told you that you were lacking beauty?
who told you that you were unlovable?
who told you that you were naked?

Horse

A feral mare.

Days and months and years of running free.  Warm sunshine beating against my back.  Gentle breezes billowing through my mane.  Frolicking through vast, open spaces; splashing through bubbling brooks of deliciously pure, sweet water.  Nuzzling my closest companions.  Sleeping beneath a star-studded, glimmering canvas of black.

Caged.

Trapped by a stranger.  Torn from all I've ever known.  Severed from my home, my family, my safety.

Ensnared by a circle of brick.  Running frantically, terrified.  Kicking, thrashing against the immovable wall.  Cut, bleeding, frenzied.

Tied.  Chained to the hand of the stranger in the center of the ring.

Tiring with each successive lap around the ring.  The lead tightening with each circle.  Pulled closer and closer to the monster in the middle.

Exhausted.  Broken.  Slowing.

Surrender.

Hosea 2:6 "Therefore, behold, I will hedge up your way with thorns, And wall her in, So that she cannot find her paths."

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I don't understand
how I can stab You in the back
-over and over-
-on purpose-
and yet You stand there,
smiling at me,
showering me with tangible love.