The Sting of Love

Knowing your Lover is there.
Knowing He's watching.
Knowing He sees everything..
..hears everything.
He knows everything.
You know that you're breaking His heart,
that He'll continue to love you selflessly, regardless.
The sting of love..

Knowing that you're hurting His heart because you can't get past the fact that your heart is hurting,
too afraid to let Him in.
and so you hurt Him..

And now His heart is hurting and your heart is hurting and you're wanting to stand up for Him but you don't know how because your heart is hurting and now His heart is hurting and that's all you know.

But He knows the end of the story.
And He knows that you're worth it.
So let Him in.

The Future

I am having so many second-guesses right now.

I really have no idea if it's an attack against my destiny,
or if it's God trying to steer me into a new direction.

I wish that God would just close the doors ahead of me if they're not His will
or that He would speak loudly and clearly about what I AM supposed to do
or at least that my future husband would walk into my life.
I'm not saying that he'd solve all of my problems,
but I'd definitely see a clearer picture of where I should go.

Let Me Love You More

I am incredibly
utterly
entirely
completely
passionately
achingly
in love with Jesus.

Sometimes I can hardly stand it. Head over heels. I can easily say that He's my first true love.

I can't get enough.

His kindness.
His gentleness.
His patience.
His guidance.
His mercy.
His desire.
His passion.

I am lovesick.