Update

hey guys! a little update on my near future:

First of all, I strongly feel that I'm not supposed to major in nursing anymore. I started doubting it at Purdue this past semester (even though before I had honestly thought I was called to it). Now that God has been healing my heart and my identity, I'm starting to realize how much of myself has been doing things to please others and not because God was calling me or not because I wanted to. I really feel like as God is healing me, I'm beginning to figure out who I really am, and I feel like nursing is not what God wants for me. I've had confirmation since praying about it. I've also been praying for God to open doors that need to be opened and close doors that need to be closed.. and God basically made it impossible for me to do nursing (long story that has to do with some required vaccines that I'm not allowed to get) - the door closed! My parents have also always been very strict about me doing nursing, so when I felt like God was telling me to get out of it, I laughed and told Him that He would have to move my parent's hearts first, before I even considered it. Then last month, when the vaccine problem arose, I was praying for God to make a way around the problem, but my mom was the one urging me to get out of the nursing program. It really shocked me, and then I remembered that prayer that I prayed months ago about moving my parents' hearts.

In more praying, I felt that God was telling me to choose what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I feel as if He's telling me to choose because those desires which are deep in my heart were placed there by Him - therefore if I choose to pursue what I really honestly want to do, I will be choosing to do what He placed in my heart. With that said, I have made the decision to get an associates in dental hygiene and an associates in ministry with a concentration in worship.

I also really feel like God has been laying on my heart to transfer to Purdue North Central this coming fall, even though I absolutely LOVE Purdue. I've been praying about it, and I feel like I've received confirmation from three other sources. I don't understand it, but I prayed about it for months, and I made my decision today to go ahead and transfer. I will complete one year of prerequisites at PNC and then transfer to Indiana University Northwest for 2 years of dental hygiene. I will be taking classes towards my ministry degree as I go.

I have my apartment lease at Purdue signed for the upcoming year, so that's another mountain that I know God will move if it's His will. If anyone knows of any female looking for housing in West Lafayette, please let me know, and I will give you more information!

I'm going to miss you Purdue people SO MUCH.. thank you so much for praying for me through this crazy journey. I won't be gone for good - I will come back and hit some Ignite meetings when I can! You have really helped shape me in a huge way. I wouldn't trade my first semester of college for anything - I love you all!

sorry if this entry was kinda confusing.. i didn't proof read it. i just wanted to get an update out now that i kinda know where my life is heading for this fall :)