Guilt, Condemnation, and Self-Hatred

I'm not sure why I feel compelled to post about guilt again, but maybe someone needs to read it!

On Friday I got the revelation that guilt is a form of self-hatred. It may seem sort of obvious to some, but to me, it was a news flash! Self-condemnation is closely tied to guilt, and although a little more obvious, it's also a form of self-hatred. Self-condemnation can stem from guilt, but it often comes because of your own judgment of others. If you judge others, it's likely that you judge yourself by holding yourself to harsh standards. In addition, if you judge others, the judgement you pour on them will also be poured back on you.

Judge not, that you be not judged. For with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you. Matthew 7:1-2

How do you get free?

If you want freedom from self-condemnation, get the plank out of your eye, and stop focusing on the speck in your brother's eye. Repent for judging others. Repent for judging yourself. Plead the blood over any ungodly words you've spoken over others or yourself, and ask God to break their power. Pray a blessing over those you've judged. Pray a blessing over yourself!

And why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye? Matthew 7:3

If you want freedom from guilt, FORGIVE YOURSELF! Earth-shattering revelation, right? Doesn't seem like it, but for me, it was! God did a deep work on my heart two nights ago, and it involved me having to go allllll the way back to my conception and forgive myself for ever existing. I had no idea that I harbored so much hatred towards myself, but God mercifully opened my eyes after weeks of crying out for deliverance from seemingly inescapable guilt. Once I "let myself off the hook" and forgave myself for a huge list of things, I didn't feel any different. But I CAN tell you that my life has been changed. The past two days have been so different. I have been able to receive more of the Father's love, and I have been able to pour that love out on others. I have had less anxiety and nervousness, and I have not felt as sick physically. I have felt joyful, carefree, and child-like. My moods have not been all over the place, and I can connect with God so much more easily. I feel His loving presence everywhere.

Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Luke 6:37

Side Note: If you're having issues feeling or receiving the Father's love, chances are you need to forgive yourself. You can't "feel" loved if you think that you're unworthy of love. Once you let go of self-hatred and sever your mental agreements with the lies of the enemy, you are free to come into agreement with the truths of your Father - see yourself the way He sees you and feel His delight over you.

"Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little." Luke 7:47

I don't promise to have all the answers. I just wanted to share a piece of my journey and hope that it blesses someone :)