Cleansing Stream

i was going to share what God did in me this past weekend at the Cleansing Stream retreat.. and then i realized i never updated about what He did in me over spring break at IHOP.. so i'll be covering IHOP sometime soon.

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Cleansing Stream:

I walked into the retreat in an extremely bad state and left in an even worse state.  I’ve been through so many deliverance retreats that it was so difficult to stay open during this one.  God is faithful though and totally gave me the grace to open up my heart and mind enough to receive a little bit.. which is a miracle in itself because I walked in with zero faith and 100% mistrust of God and everyone else.

I don’t feel like a lot happened because I’ve been through all of the topics covered so many times that I could have lead the deliverance myself.. but I’m really trusting God that He peeled back a couple more layers of my heart.

The only real difference I feel is that I don’t feel the smothering loneliness that I’ve felt for the past 3 weeks. One of the first women that prayed for me prayed to break off the lie that I’m alone, and then I got a revelation of Jesus sitting next to me and crying with me.. and ever since Saturday morning, I have literally felt Jesus with me EVERYWHERE.. giving me the strength to face the world and crying with me when I’m crying and just sitting there in comforting silence with me. It’s amazing. I’m so thankful for it. It has helped to lift some of the heaviness off of me in the past few days.

Overall, I feel like I got more deliverance from a 30 minute phone call with my friends last night than I did all weekend.. they prayed for me and just let me cry.. and spoke life to me.. and I could see a major difference in my day today.

I’m not trying to diss Cleansing Stream by any means. God just wants to deal with my wounds differently this time to show Himself to me in a bigger way. And I’m thankful.

I would write more but my brain is kinda fried it seems.