you

I know you're out there, and I know you're real. I know you're wonderful because so many people have told me such amazing things about you.

I pray for you. I can't wait for the days when we can pray together.

I want you to know that I'm waiting for you. I'm sorry I haven't waited for you in the past. I'm sorry if you have waited for me. I'm trying really hard now. I know you'll understand. And I know you'll be patient with me. It's a lot easier knowing you exist and seeing little glimpses of what we will be together.

Sometimes I wish I knew who you are. But I can't decide if that would make the present easier or more difficult.

Don't worry about anything -- I understand. I've already forgiven you. Just please promise me that you will always put me second. And that you'll sing to me, even if you're insecure about your voice.

I want you to know that I'm already completely comfortable with you. It's mind-boggling. God is overwhelming me with more about you as I write.

Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve someone like you. And sometimes I'm afraid of the grand things God has laid before us. But I know that it's all going to be okay. I'm just so thankful to have you. Whenever I start doubting myself, my fears are quieted because I can't help but move in the right direction when I'm under the cover of a God-chaser.

I hope you're excited to meet our daughter. I know I am. She's going to be a daddy's girl. And she's going to follow in your footsteps. I pray for her, as well. You're going to be the most amazing daddy.. It melts my heart when God gives me images of you interacting with her. I was always so afraid to be a mother because I'm not sure exactly what that looks like.. but seeing you gives me confidence. We're going to have other children, as well.. But I don't know anything about them. Maybe you do.

I can't wait to meet you. God's doing a deep work in my heart so that I'll be ready for you soon.

<3

And by the way.. we're going to have a dog. haha.